Happy Mother’s Day Maa!!!

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Mother – no amount of writing or praising can actually justify the title. Still I would make an attempt to do so because I personally feel I haven’t been able to express how much my mom means to me and I hope I am able to do so by writing it down.  ‘Maa’ as we lovingly  call our mothers in India are nothing less than GOD. Its rightfully said that God couldn’t be everywhere hence mothers were made. On a personal front my mom is my ‘hero’. People say being an house wife is the toughest job in the world but I say being my mom is the toughest. Raising two children is tough enough, ask any mom out there. But to do so while having to earn a living requires extraordinary character. I come from a modest family. We never had any servants in our home. To be able to do all the household chores as well as perform on the professional front just shows how strong a character my mom is made of. She is the strongest person I have ever known in my life. Hell, she is more awesome and cooler than Batman!! There was never a moment in my entire life where she was unavailable for me, whether physically or emotionally, because of her work. She just epitomizes everything a mother stands for. The itinerary of a typical day in my mom’s life during my school days was :-

  • Wake up at 5.
  • Do the household chores of brooming and sweeping.
  • Prepare breakfast for the whole family.
  • Prepare lunch for me and my elder brother.
  • Leave for office till 8:30.
  • Slug it out in the office.
  • Come back home and bring something to eat while coming.
  • Look to it that I sat down to study.
  • Prepare dinner for the whole family.
  • Wash the dishes.
  • Sleep at 11.

Imagine doing this for nearly two decades and you would understand the gravity of the situation. She never had time for herself. Her entire life is dedicated to us. Not once have I felt inferior to other rich kids around me because I was never made to feel the absence of any comfort. Not once have I eaten food from outside during childhood because mom never complained of being too tired to cook. She was always there. Punctual and disciplined. She was always upbeat when it came to us. And just when you thought that her duties might be over, she adds another responsibility upon herself. To look after our grandmother. Though my grandmother doesn’t live with us but my mom looks after her as though she does. The greatest lessons I have learned in my life was through my mom. You can only earn a living through education but how to lead a good life was taught by my mom. She was, is , will be the greatest teacher in my life. She taught me ‘simple living, high thinking‘, ‘People are unkind, be kind anyways‘, ‘there are lots of pains in life, smile anyways‘, ‘sometimes world will seem unjust and tough place, be good anyways‘, ‘people may not help you, help anyways‘. What I am today mom, I am only because of you. You have knowingly or unknowingly always been my pillar of strength. When I look at you I feel so blessed. I couldn’t have asked for more.

You are no ordinary human maa. You were, are and will always be my superhero. There is this title song of the bengali serial we used to watch. It went something like ‘Tomar chada ghoom ashe na Maa‘, which translates to ”without you I am unable to sleep, MOM’. I can’t imagine what I would have done without you maa.

Even if I am able to be half of a person you are maa, I think I would succeed in being your son. Or at least I hope I prove myself worthy of being called ‘your son’. As I conclude with tears slowly rolling down my eyes I have only thing to say to you – ‘I Love You and I see God in you Maa!!’

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A Year Older, A Lot Wiser!!

ImageHappy Birthday to me, happy birthday to me!!! Yes today I am officially 22. I must admit it doesn’t sound as cool as saying I am 21. Doesn’t quite ring the same bell in the ears. Anyways, hard truth is that I am 22 now, a year older, one more year taken away from my running around days. Feels weird to think of it in that way. I never have been too excited about birthdays, especially mine. I always see it as another day gone by. But this birthday holds special place in my heart. Because this birthday marked a changed me, different from my old self.

Things are bound to change in life. That change can be viewed by comparing, by retrospecting on the time between two significant life events in our lives. In my life it happens to be the period between my 21st and 22nd birthday. A lot has changed and ‘a lot’ doesn’t even begin to define the depth of change that has occurred in my life as well as in me. Its a kind of ‘this time last year’ kind of case. So this day last year, I was in love. I was friends with a girl whom i thought to be the most awesome person in the whole world. I was going through ‘you spin my world right round right round’, ‘I’d catch a grenade for ya’, ‘All I ever wanted was You and me’, ‘Coz you are amazing just the way you are!!’……… I have always loved the feeling of being in love. It just make you wake up every morning with a smile on your face. You look forward to each day enthusiastically. It just changes your life in so many ways. We had this wonderful dinner that day. And life couldn’t have been any more amazing.

Fast Forward eight months. I had turned into someone I myself was finding hard to recognize. No where near who I really am. Regular fights and the stress had turned me into someone I never want to be again. Relationships turned sour and my heart was filled with hate.

Fast forward four months. If my maths is right, it is today. 😛 A changed person. Of course it didn’t happen overnight. It took its fair share of days. But I am glad t occurred. I am in love again. But this time its with myself. I have learnt quite a few lessons

  • ‘First learn to love yourself, Only then can you love others!!’ 
  • ‘Everything in life comes with an expiry date. So be prepared.’
  • ‘Learn to let go.’
  • ‘Always have the feeling of love in your heart. Even for those because of whom you have been hurt. Because life is not meant for hate.’
  • ‘Smile. Just because it feels good to be you.’

I have tried to inculcate these lessons to the best of my capabilities. I have risen above hate a great deal. Not completely but surely. I have no ill feelings for the girl whom I loved from the bottom of the heart because if it hadn’t been for her I wouldn’t have been who I am today. Though i no more feel she is the most awesome person in the world but she truly is golden at heart. Of course, I do miss her from time to time but it just shows how much I was in love. I am able to smile more because I have learnt to make peace with the harder truths of life. I am able to look forward to each day because it presents new opportunities to challenge myself, to be able to discover myself.  22 and already looking forward for the 23rd. Its gonna be a hell of a ride.

The line rightly sums up how I feel today- “A Year Older A Lot Wiser!!!” 🙂

 

Deciphering The Greatest Mystery of Life : Women!!!!

I guess most men will agree with me on this. Women truly are the greatest mystery of life. Cant live with them, cant live without them as they say. If a guy, by any chance, truly understands the ways of the fairer sex then he deserves all the respect in the world. Because woman kind truly are a complicated bunch. They will make your head spin through their thoughts and actions. And all the best to the guy who is on the opposite side. Only one warning to him- Mate, you are in for a hell of a ride!!

Firstly. woman are dumb. There is a shortage of smart females out there. And by smart I mean women who are actually aware of whats going on the world and not just their own lives. Those who don’t have to be guided while in midst of technology. In their defense they are really not interested in technology but girls, please learn to use Google’s additional features properly and please for gods sake know the basic functions in a computer. Its really irritating for a guy to mouth feed you some of the easiest things.

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Girls and Technology can never go hand in hand!!!

Secondly, Girls please put aside your egos. Especially with respect to your relationship with your fellow women. Please stop your bitching.  If you don’t like a particular person please just stop talking with her rather than showing the world that you are friends but bitching about one another afterwards. Guys don’t like the bitching. I have seen even best friends bitch about each other. I mean What the hell! Just say it on the face.

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Thirdly, stop your obsession about looks. Especially those of other women. Stop discussing about their outfits, earrings, footwear!!! Let them be please. No one obsesses about your looks other than you yourself.

Fourthly, stop bargaining. Bargaining is good but you lot overdo it by a huge margin. And to make it worse you flaunt it. Its very irritating trust me.

p.s.  Above article is only in good humor. Girls please don’t make me your enemy. I really love you all!!! 😛

Because The Change Is In Me!!!

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Change is the only constant thing in life. Thus is life. Heard it numerous times haven’t me. And it is true. We might have had various experiences regarding the same. We are not built, programmed to remain stagnant in our lives. We have to keep  moving forward. But many times we fail to do so. We get stuck on certain experiences, certain loss that might have happened in our lives. We get so worked up that we begin to think less of ourselves. We forget to live in the present and stop looking forward towards brighter future. It all seems the end of the world.

For this very reason change is paramount. We need to change ourselves continuously in order to be happy. Its not wrong to grieve but it is wrong to forget how wonderful we are in that grief. Yes loss is inevitable. Everyone cant remain in our lives forever. they are meant to move on. And so should we, how much so ever we might love them. It might be the hardest thing you might do in your life. But you have to do it.  And most of all we need to keep believing in ourselves. That we are equally wonderful no matter what happens and that we have the strength to get back on our feet every time we fall.

And I am saying all this from personal experience. I have couple of failed friendships. For the first couple of them I admit I didn’t take it all too well. I was depressed beyond despair and felt like I didn’t exist. But the last one taught me a lot of things. The one important thing I learnt from it was that of change. The other one was that scars aren’t bad. Rather its good to have scars. They reflect the fact that you had the guts to give your heart to someone. the one thing I made myself believe was that it happened because it was meant to. Now I don’t necessarily mean that I wasn’t hurt. I grieved a lot actually, it hurt bad. But i understood that this experience wasn’t given to me so that I stop smiling, so that i stop remaining happy. And I smiling also doesn’t mean I don’t miss them from time to time. I do but I kinda learned to live happily without them. And the greatest change I believe I brought into myself is that I never have had negative feelings towards them in spite of all the grievances. I never had the feeling of revenge once. I in some ways am in peace. 🙂 O:)

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”
― Anne Lamott